It Makes Me Sad...Big Time

Right now, I am thinking if he is already dead. I was at work today and one of our patient who's got motor neurone disease decided that he doesn't want to live anymore. So sad, he is only on his early forties and was diagnosed not so long ago (about 2 years). His disease is so advance that his health deteriorated rapidly. He was admitted to us (ICU) post surgery because he had a bowel surgery but today he had another bleeding and the patient decided not to have another surgery and he want to die. Our consultants discussed to him the pros and cons. With his consent the doctor agreed. It is so sad looking at him writing letters to his friends with the help of his wife. He made letters as well for his daughter and son to give when they turn 18 and letters when they get married. Thinking of it...makes me sad...big time. His breathing machine will be turn off by one of the nurse and he will be given sedation so that he will die comfortable. When I left this evening at work his children and parents are there to say goodbye. He is so brave. I am sad for him and the same time happy that he will not suffer anymore. I'm glad that I am not the nurse who's gonna do it. Or else I will be on tears. I think right now, he is already gone. May he rest in peace.

*Motor Neurone Disease are a group of progressive neurological disorders that destroy motor neurones, the cells that control voluntary muscle activity including speaking, walking, breathing, swallowing and general movement of the body.